vows

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All that I am.
What I wish I was and wasn't.
My missteps and do overs.
My pettiness.
My habit for sharing too much of myself.
For not sharing enough.
For putting myself ahead of everyone.
The foolish lies I believe about myself.  Hook.  Line.  Sinker.

I will not put up the wall of isolation and fear.  I will welcome You.  Like a child fully aware, dependent and confident in a parent's love I fall on Your Great Glory.  I will allow Your love to be my security.

I will allow who You say I am to fill me up to overflowing.  Living loved and freely.

You, Who have no beginning and no end, call to me. 
Stop for me.  
Notice me. 
That You notice me is life.  You say the word and it is done.  Called into existence.  Not a far off, fairy tale thing, but a real flesh and blood truth.  I am the now- not an after or a before- a now.  I can learn to live in that newness today. 

I'll identify with You. 
Trust You.
Follow You. 
Be faithful to You
Love You. 
  
Your beauty and love chase after me
Every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
For the rest of my life
- Psalm 23:6 The Message



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